Larry called w/updates

Ok, so Wednesday night he called, and I hung up on him, because I was sleeping, it was only after I woke up for work did I realize who I hung up on. Now last night he called again and left a message. “Hey Chris, it’s Larry, haven’t talked to you in a while, hope all’s well, give me a call, talk to you later.” I’m sorry, but it’s been over 6 months to a year, no, it’s been a year since I last talked to this dude. I was recovering from my surgery, and he picked me up from class one day. I remember because my professor saw me outside the parking garage, with my crutches, anyways back to the blog. Larry is a nice guy, and is fun t chat with, but is also an asshole in his own right. I mean, I’ve “known” this guy for several years, and he wanted to be my daddy yet we never talked. The phone, IM and e-mail works both ways. Since I never herd from him, I never started conversations with him. He said he wanted a son, and wanted to live together, but I got the impression he was not out. Now you can have a relationship and not be out, but it does put a very hard strain on the relationship. Why am I posting this, I guess you could say I am piss and hurt. I have the love of my life now, but that is not to say I found him without any hardships, or trials. I’ve been cheated on, lied to, and abused, but I am still here and ready to face the music. I look forward to the day that I can exchange vows, and seal our love in front of family and friends. Yes, Shawn the love of my life is you. Hold on… Ok, I’m back. For some reason this guy is eating away at my emotions, and for the kid who was raised to believe that “real men don’t cry,” I find myself tearing up. I hate to allow someone free space in my mind, but I just can’t help but think of how this guy has affected me. Yes we were intimate, and yes we did have a “date,” but I guess it’s just life. How can you share so much of your self, and not have feelings for them? How can you take a young man, and promise a good life/relationship with him, and then never talk to him again. How? What type of person must you be to be able to do such a thing? Now since John and I are not, errr, shall we say together (if you get my drift) we are still good friends. We have times when we are out of touch with each other, and yes the phone stays silent for periods of time, but we still make the effort to call each other, and yes, even hang out. For those reading this, who don’t know John, he’s straight, and has his girl, Tara.

*UPDATE* Larry has yet to call back, how sad. I doubt that he realized what he has lost. Normally I would have wondered what was wrong with me, or what I did wrong., But I now see that he is the one with the problem, not I. Larry, if you’re reading this, I had high hopes in you. I enjoyed talking with you, and I felt like I could get to know you better, but only hearing from you a few times a year is not good enough for me. I need good firm communications, I also need a daddy who is out, so that I may someday feel comfortable with who I am. Part of me wishes that things could have been different, but then again I don’t. Thanks to you showing either you’re a huge dick, or your lack of interest, I now have the love of my life. And if you haven’t figured it out, our pic is on my profile on daddylover. Mr. Dadsway, I want you to know that this son is off limits, and is now taken. Shawn challenges me, and even God forbid talks to me. We share intimate thoughts and feelings, isn’t that what real partners do? He’s kinky enough to keep my mind running, and he’s comfortable with it. He pushes my limits but knows enough to not push me over the edge. Point I’m trying to make here, is this, Larry, you had your chance, I was willing, but you were not. I wanted someone to pick me up and be my daddy, but you passed me by. I was picked up by Shawn and we are happy, and in love. He’s out and I am learning so much from him. Larry if you do call again, I will answer, and I will treat you as a man, and with the respect you deserve. I will not be a dick to you as you were to me. Shawn, if you’re reading this, know that I love you and am glad that you took the chance to meet me. Without that, none, I mean NONE of this would be possible today. I love you Boo Bear.