I'm not doing that...

This is how the conversation with my Father went when he got home...(Bold is me)

"What are you doing up?"
"I'm waiting to see if I'm getting a call today, they have a possible jb match for me. I may take it."
"Cool"
"By the way, I want to contact the local PFLAG chapter and talk with them, to see what it's like down here, and see if you'd feel comfortable there, I'm willing to go with you if you want."
"I'm not doing that, that's the gay thing, right?"
"ok, do what you want."


They may not see the hate, but as the saying goes, "You can't see the forest through the trees. I am honestly tired, and hurt, i am sick of all of this. I am seriously considering finding a gay support group for myself. I was depressed, and didn't like being so, and i know i am falling back into that same world. I feel sick, dirty, and un-wanted here. John and Tara are my only touch with reality. For much of my life, I was told to act older, more mature, and be propper. With John i am able to be a normal 22 year old. It makes me feel good, and is a vacation from my life here in Ma. I am getting to the point where i really want nothing to do with my family, and yet I am torn because I love my niece and Nephews. I will try to post a video on youtube, look for it.